On the Edge

I like to be on the edge of what I have.
I like not knowing where my next meal will come from.
It gives me sweet pleasure
To ride upon providence.
So a strategy brews
To shed what I have quickly- 
To invest it into the ones I love
Before my right hand
Can know what my left hand is doing,
And to spread my bread upon the waters
And thus be ever on the very wake 
Of what God provides.

This post seems contradictory to the last one.
But I sense a resolution 
Though it’s hard to describe.
I think that it is something like
Shed more often, and outsource the frugality 
Wherever possible to the ones you serve.